In the time since my last post, much has happened…not an easy journey, but a lovely one. In keeping with our Psalms study and also in good “our God is faithful” fashion, His word continues to unfold and speak into my life.
When I sat down to write, I intended to continue to unpack Psalm one. It has been on my heart to consider what it means to bear fruit in its season…immediately I felt like maybe I needed to “journal” the last few weeks, yet where would I start and honestly, I am still processing so much. So I went back to the scriptures again, determined to do this…looking for a tie in…this is what I found.
Psalm 1:4 “the ungodly are not so, but are like the chaff which the wind drives away. Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the day of judgement, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.”
These past few months have tested me in ways that I have never been tested before. My prayer was constant…”keep me faithful…” So I would take one step after another after another and so on…remembering His word to me in seasons past. There were times I would think, what has happened to my faith…and I would cry out “you are the author and the finisher of my faith, I am clinging to You to come through, You are full of faith…Faithful and True.” Exhausting to say the least…walking, stepping, moving forward…against everything I was feeling…precious. Empty, yet not stuck.
There is a way of the ungodly. A way that leads to destruction and doubt. There is the decision to believe what Jesus said about Himself as the Christ and then there is the decision that we must make each day, often each moment, to walk in light of that profession. The latter, will produce a steadfastness and perseverance and allow for growth and for life to be resurrected, rather than being tossed to and fro, unstable in all your ways (James 1) which leads to destruction.
Even though life gets hard and maybe the memory of His faithfulness and the promises from His Word seem distant, causing you to doubt Him, take another step forward. Landing each step on the sure foundation that He is our Rock and our Fortress (Psalm 31:1). My encouragement came not from “feeling” faithful but from walking forward by faith. Actually, being faithful. Steadfast. Steady. He will bring the increase, and He did.
“Therefore my beloved, as you have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure (Phil 2:12-13).”