The holidays are stressful and wonderful for many reasons. Yet one reason that can also add anxiety, and even dread, is family gatherings. It is the same for so many; we gather around the kitchen, telling stories, retelling stories over and over as if telling for the first time. My children have heard many of the stories we tell every year since birth; even still, they say each time that they have never heard that one before. It never fails.
Often, the retelling of these stories evokes emotion. We laugh and banter, trying to diminish the effect, however, underlying the ruse is hurt, frustration, and a deep desire to defend yourself by wanting to tell the story as it happened or to say that it is not who you are anymore. Maybe even stronger is the desire for your family to stand up for you without hesitation. Underscoring the growth and grace that you have fought so hard to attain.
I want to encourage you as you prepare to come together over the holidays or any gathering of family or friends in the future. One of the first signs to defend oneself is temper. According to Andrew Murray, temper is the evidence of whether the love of God is “filling the heart.” This is so helpful. In the moment you feel the temper start to rise, be mindful. Immediately go to the Lord in prayer. He is your ever-present help in your time of need (Psalm 46:1). Take a practical approach, get up and clear the table, offer to refill drinks, go check on the children, or start to wash the dishes. Serving others is the quickest way to diffuse a situation and offer a moment to pray and receive help from the Lord.
Let me speak directly to you for a moment. God is working in your life. Let these moments be an opportunity to stand for the work He has begun in you and let the testing prove to build the perseverance that builds the maturity so that you may be perfected, lacking nothing (Philippians 1:6, James 1:2-4). Also, stay humble. Own your past, have grace for the one telling the story, and if necessary, politely say that is not how you remember it. Offer a transition statement, like, “God has been good to me,” or “Praise God for His goodness to me.” Then, offer to refill those drinks.
Let your temper be used to remind you that you need Christ each moment, let it be an opportunity for you to lean in to the Lord as He will stand with you when no one else will. He is a sure foundation (Isaiah 33:6).
Additionally, God gave us our emotions for a reason. They alert us. We are not to ignore the feelings but bring them to the Lord and ask why we feel that way. Maybe you need to be reminded of God’s promise to you; maybe you need to see again all God has done for you and the healing that has already taken place. Maybe, God is giving you an opportunity to tell others how God has changed your life and speak up that will change the conversation in the future.
Finally, let this be a reminder that other family members may feel the same way. Look for opportunities to stand up for them. Watch for their tempers and be quick to offer a kind word of affirmation. Retelling a story can be great fun, but it does not need to hurt someone in the process, adding more harm. Maybe some stories need not be told. Maybe the more vulnerable stories need to be shared, offering hope to those who are listening. These stories of grace, thankfulness, and telling someone you are proud of them and that you love them will be the healing balm that could change everything.
Emmanuel, God with us. Let us make room for Him at the table.
Heather